Sometimes it is worth not just reading something, but giving yourself the opportunity to really read something. I mean that experience of feeling beyond the words to the space between and beneath. That's all the words are ever trying to do, actually - to form a shape and vibration that somehow beckons you deeper into the space where words do not exist and yet everything is communicated.
For me, today feels like one of those times when it's worth really reading because I think this message is so profound and perhaps so profoundly unbelievable to many of us, that it's not enough to read and move on. To understand the implications of this we can't only read the words that are actually there, but must also feel what is being said in the space the words cannot reach.
I was sitting by the sea watching the sun go down when I read a poem that moved me so deeply, I found a few soft tears rolling down my cheeks. It is by St. Teresa of Avila and is called He Desired Me So I Came Close:
"He desired me so I came close.
No one can near God unless He has
prepared a bed for
A thousand souls hear His call every second,
but most everyone then looks into their life's mirror and
says, 'I am not worthy to leave this sadness.'
When I first heard His courting song, I too
looked at all I had done in my life and said,
'How can I gaze into His omnipresent eyes?'
I spoke these words with all my heart,
but then He sang again, a song even sweeter,
and when I tried to shame myself once more from His presence
God showed me His compassion and spoke a divine truth,
'I made you, dear, and all I make is perfect.
please come close, for I
How many times have you felt yourself unworthy?
On the outside of love?
Believing that everyone else deserves a place at the table but you?
Felt shame so heavy that you are certain you are the worst - the absolute worst in the whole of history?
Locked in an identity of a separate self, swimming around in a world full of other separate selves, these thoughts and feelings are inevitable. But come to know the deeper truth of who you are - the true Self - and you will also come to know this:
You are never - never - beyond the reach of Love.
The separate self will read those words and think them cheap and empty. It will insist that you are somehow different, that the details of your particular life are ten shades darker than any other human being and, therefore, not worthy of inclusion. Such games the separate self plays!
Beyond your personality, beyond anything you have done or not done in your life, beyond any stories you have about who you are, there is something lasting and real and true. That something is what we call Love and it is the true identity of every living thing on this planet.
So make no mistake, you are never - never - beyond the reach of Love.
Love and courage,